After years of struggling through life with a negative mindset, crippling anxiety, and depression, I have decided to open up about the bad chapters in my life. It's relieving to know that you're not alone during the difficult situations that life throws at you.
In a world full of negativity, it can be hard to keep an open mind and remain optimistic. I want people to know that they are not alone and there is an upside to life even though life events say otherwise. It's important to remember that bad times do come to an end. Never give up.
I understand the feeling of worthlessness, hopelessness, and failure all too well. There were so many times where I didn't believe I could get through another day because I was in such a dark place. I let the opinions of others and my mistakes define who I was. Anxiety and depression took over for years and each day I felt so lost.
Eventually, I stopped looking at life through such a negative lens and put all of my energy into looking at life in a more positive, hopeful light. I always thought that life would be a continuous series of unfortunate events. One bad chapter after another led me to believe that life will never be in my favor and will consistently be full of disappointments.
My bad chapters certainly didn't close over night, but eventually the painful chapters I endured did come to an end. If I had given up when I wanted to, I would not be here today.
I couldn't help but think about how much time I couldn't get back. I spent so much of my time miserable from over thinking, caring what others thought of me, and trying to make people happy. My depression and anxiety crippled me for years.
When I think about how much time has passed, I keep in mind that it is never too late to rewrite your story. Life does not have a time frame on when you should complete certain milestones. Everyone has their own timeline. You can write brighter chapters whenever you are ready to.
Life is not going to be consistently perfect. Life is how you view it. I survived some difficult situations where I debated if I even wanted to live anymore. If I can get through the times where I questioned if life was worth it, I could get through anything else that came my way.
When you're at your lowest moment, it's comforting to know that you're not alone. My hope through my writing is to help others get through similar battles from speaking on behalf of my own experiences, diagnoses, and perspectives on how I have found a different or positive outlook on some of the chapters I was able to get through.
It’s never too late to rewrite your story. There are brighter chapters ahead.